I’m sitting here on a unseasonably cold spring day, cozied up in the biggest sweatshirt I own, fuzziest blanket wrapped around the other exposed parts of me. The spreadsheet is staring back at me, the calendar days are numbered but the other little boxes shine bright and empty. I’m one program away from being finished with the six debut workout plans to be promoted on the site.

The creative process is a funny one for me, and something I felt compelled to write about. In addition to my career being mostly in healthcare and fitness, I am an artist and writer as well. I have noticed in the past year or so how my creative process works. It’s actually quite amusing.

20% “Damn I really need to work on that.”

15% “Let me like some photos on Instagram, haven’t done that enough today. Shoot, I haven’t posted yet either.”

30% “Ok, I’m sitting in front of my laptop, now what? FACEBOOK! Oh and I had to buy that thing on Amazon. Did I get in touch with so and so yet?”

25% “I’m hungry!”

10% “In the zone. Program done. Well, that wasn’t so hard.”

I could take six full hours to mentally prepare, but once I sit down, the program is done and written in about an hour. It’s just the way I am, the way my brain works, and that is 100% ok. It has taken me a very long time to learn how to be kind to myself, but I am certainly getting there. I don’t mentally berate myself for “procrastinating”, as some would call it. I think there is a big difference between someone who puts off tasks indefinitely and someone who takes a few hours to really settle into a project. The same goes for my art, and my writing as well. Sometimes I will take days or weeks to start on a painting or chapter, but once I sit down, about 75% is done in the first sitting (you have to let oil paint dry a bit before you can continue, otherwise some would be done in just one sitting!). I am passionate about everything I do, and fitness is no exception. I’m sure many of you struggle with something similar. There’s something that just HAS to be done, whether you’re super enthusiastic about it or not, and thinking about it can be paralyzing. If you have ever experienced the creative process, you know what I’m talking about. It’s so amusing that 90% of the time spent in the process is actually weeding out the unnecessary thoughts, feelings, hunger pangs, etc. But when it comes down to it, you know you’re going to deliver in the end.

You have enough things to worry about during the day, let me be the one who stretches my brain to the limit to come up with a fitness program that you can be confident will be effective, fun, and get results. And now that I have exhausted 90% of my time today, it’s time to deliver. After I get a snack, that is.